I would just like to start by saying........WHAT AM I THINKING?
As many of you know that the past year has brought many changes for my family. I wouldn't call them set backs, just new and interesting challenges to look forward to. For those of you that don't know, here is a little about myself and family.....
I have been married to my wonderful husband for 9 years now. We have 3 beautiful children, Alli (13); Taylor (9 as of this past summer) and Ramsey (4). My husband is the only bread winner of our family of 5 and I am an official way overinvolved (as my oldest would say), stay at home Mom and have been since our daughter Taylor was born. With that said, our lil Taylor has not been the easiest kid we have hatched. To make a long story short, she graced us with her prescence on July 10, 2000 and didn't stop screaming her head off till she was about 3! (and NO, that is NOT 3 months, that would be 3 years ) She was very, very colicky thru her first year of life, along with reflux, indigestion, chronic ear infections, tubes when she was 6 mths and panic attacks when in a car or in any store enviroment. She also had a really hard time showing love or recieving it. Life with her was a struggle and a challenge to say the least. But with every mile stone was plenty of rewards. The only reason I share this much history with you is because my life was anywhere but where it should have been during these trying years. My relationship with my Heavenly Father was none existant to say the least. So you can imagine the strain of a trying child and a husband who is always working and NO GOD! Not b/c he ever left me...because I LEFT HIM! What was I thinking?
I look back on those difficult years and just wonder how I ever thought I could make it each day without Him in my life? Things would have been so much easier and better if I had just trusted in Him. Glad to report that is NOT the case today.
To bring you up to date:
After about the age of 3 and 2 sets of tubes later and adenoids taken out she started becoming alot calmer and loving child. She would hug me and she even started telling me she loved me. What a beautiful day that was!! She has grown into a very vibrant and loving 9 year old little girl. I don't know what I would do without her, that is for sure!
This past year, Taylor has been diagnosed with ADD & ADHD, anxiety and migraines daily and grand mal seizures about every 15 sec.'s. With the help of prayers and answered prayers, we have come along way with the ADD & ADHD, but last year was a trial year to say the least. Her siezures still aren't regulated but definitely alot better than they were.
All of this information given to say, with the struggles of her learning and the siezures not regulated I have decided to take a leap of faith into very unknown territory for me and Homeschool her, this year! Tell me I am not crazy PLEASE!!
Taylor spent hours in tutoring last year before and after school to come home to 2 more hours at least of make up work to try and get her ready for the 3rd grade taks test. Although I am extremely greatful to her teacher and the principal and staff for what all they accomplished with Taylor last year, I feel that 8 - 10 hours of school a day is just not the way for a 9 year old to live. She adores school and all her friends but is extremely excited to be able to have the one-on-one attention that she so desperately needs.
A wonderful friend of my suggested that I blog my first year homeschooling experience. It could be very theraputic. Also, I am hoping to get responses from other first time homeschoolers and maybe we can together get through our first year.
I have to admit I have a wonderful support group behind me and with their faith in me and the wonderful women that God has blessed me with I know I can do this.
PLEASE REMIND ME I SAID THIS AS THIS YEAR UNFOLDS!!
Here's hoping for the best!!